Day Thirty-nine

Less than 2 days to go until d-day (delivery day)! I get butterflies just writing that! It feels like we have been waiting for this day for so long, even though it will be a full 2 months shorter than any of my other pregnancies. I've just never been so consumed with any of my pregnancies before and making it to 32 weeks without anything happening to either baby is such a blessing and answer to prayer. It's a day that seemed like it would never come, not that we're there just yet but we're so close!

I had another good weekend with the fam, and I also got to spend some time with Gwen and Jennie (and family) for a while this weekend. We had a great Girls Night Out last night, which was very refreshing! It worked out well that I got to spend an extra day with Euge and the kids today too since it was Labor Day. We were even able to get in a little last minute school shopping today. Kyla starts first grade tomorrow and then Addie starts preschool on Wednesday. I really wish I could be there! At least neither of them is starting a new school this year, although this will be Kyla's first year of going all day, every day.

I've still been contracting occasionally, but I swear it's mostly just when they put me on the monitors, which is frustrating because if I start contracting they leave me on longer and then I contract more and on and on it goes. They also started the second round of betamethasone steroid injections today in an attempt to help the babies' lungs develop a little more before we deliver Wednesday.

I'm so excited to see the babies and have them be part of our lives, but there's definitely a lot I'm nervous about too! Here's just a few of the concerns on my mind...

• I'm nervous about having a c-section, as this is my first one - just kind of a fear of the unknown.
• I'm nervous about how the babies are going to do once they are out and how their health will be.
• I'm nervous about how I'm going to balance my time between being here with the babies and being home with Eugene and the kids.
• I'm nervous about trying to care for 5 kids once the babies come home, and giving them all the attention that they each so desperately need and deserve.
• I'm nervous about trying to care for 2 babies at the same time (I am so not the baby whisperer!)
• I'm nervous about whether or not I'm ever going to see anything or anyone outside the walls of my home for the next year, and if not, how I will ever survive, being the social person that I am.

I could go on, but you get the idea. :) So I continue to pray that God will give me peace and the strength that I need to face each new challenge as it comes. He certainly hasn't let us down so far so I have to trust that he will continue to meet not only my needs, but the needs of every other person in my family! I honestly can't imagine trying to face all this on my own, and I am so grateful that I don't have to!