Day Twenty-four

This weekend has definitely been one of the more difficult ones since I have been in the hospital. Taiven fell off a swing last Thursday and seemed to hurt himself more so than the normal bump or bruise, but we couldn't tell for sure just how bad it was or if he was just extra tired or what. Then last night we were at a BBQ (aka "Meat Fest") at the Kohsel's and Taiven finally got down to play outside for a little and then tripped and fell and proceeded to cry in obvious pain for the next hour or so until he eventually fell asleep.

This morning when he got up Eugene said he was definitely favoring his right arm and seemed to be walking as though his left shoulder was lower and was bothering him. Eugene rechecked his shoulder and discovered that he had apparently dislocated it. He proceeded to pop it back in, which was pretty traumatic for all involved, but Taiven seemed to be feeling much better afterward. However, he would still cry if we tried to pick him up or if he moved the wrong way so after they got home tonight Eugene took him into the office and x-rayed his shoulder and discovered that he had also broken his clavicle. No wonder the poor boy was in so much pain!

All this, along with being able to see the toll all this transition is starting to take on my family, made for a very difficult weekend emotionally for me. It was heartbreaking for me to see Taiven in so much pain and know that I had to leave him to go back to the hospital. Even though I know there is not a whole lot I could do for him it's just hard to feel like you can't be there for your child when he is hurting, and can't help bear the load this creates for those who are caring for him.

As for the babies, they continue to look good overall. Thursday we had a couple of monitoring sessions where their heart rates dropped for a period of time, but they eventually recovered and have monitored well since. It was definitely a reminder for me though that we are not in the clear yet. I feel like I am learning a hard lesson about trusting the Lord right now; even with my children. Maybe I'll get it eventually...